Happy New Year!
I know it is September 22 2025 and you may think I jumped the line but nope for myself it's the New Year. I am writing ahead of time because it is a private day for myself and this coming year should be interesting. See you soon #eved
Nov 1 2025
Well, what to say…I am focused on creation currently and allowing the mind to dream and expand. The hard part is not the mind, the play, the dark rooted winding roads of my mind - its the cost of bondage gear for fuck sake! I do love to dress up and make Masters cock rise and I have the next idea picked out - Etsy definitely wins on options and variety for gear and even price.
I will say connecting work and my pattern of destruction together was a pretty mind blowing revelation in the last couple weeks. Work, promotions, and success are a trifecta that I blow out on the success part - I never made it last, I found a reason to leave or why it’s not good enough. I could tell you a tale of why success scares me but a brief version 2 houses lost by parents should sum it up. Just as I can breathe new life into my core and treasure my life as a servant, then I can open the door of success and allow it to be welcomed.
And just as I embrace this new understanding my senior director is all ‘hey I was offered to take over another bldg’ and what do I do? I let him know I think it is a bad decision because you can’t outrun the stupid of employees and a new building does not mean shit. He is a good guy and fuck he is intelligent!! He has been so helpful to me helping the clients I serve of course I do not want him to go. Yet I also know what will be, will be.
On a final note a sensitizing thought ruptured within - a dog cage, the floor a tilt slanted to ensure its ass stayed penetrated by the huge dog cock with its legs chained upward on the cage wall, arms held down to ensure that while it stayed strapped up and down all day it could writhe in its own waste…
October 19 2025
There is no burning desire; rather, there is a bodily urge to be anchored, to create, to construct, and leave many lasting imprints. The desire to develop roots and allow things to follow their path, just like a seed in the ground has activated in eved!
I had a beautiful time with my babies and some pretty wow moments happened between me and my mom - in a good way. And yes Sunburn on day 1. Oh and I was placed aside at the airport and heavily frisked returning home wearing my Israel sweater - it was an honor fuckers.
My mind has a familiar itch to play. I don't mean like halloween, for work I am going as Average Joes dodgeball player, what I mean is letting my imagination free to be freaky. Oh yeah, I also nominated my boss for an award, and he got picked and I get to present it to Him in front of the whole company. I also nominated my work buddy over me for promotion and other than a fake interview for paperwork he will take lead at work, and I am excited to stay exactly where I am. My agency, thanks to government cuts, has major hits to take next year yet they are making sure we all stay employed but 40,000 per bldg budget cuts are going to hurt so I am starting to think how to find resources for the homeless and this is a mission.
Now to #slavelife - My mind is a complicated place. It has not felt free in years for a multifaceted set of reasons, my reasons mind you not Masters, and somehow, I opened the gate and found myself seeking outfits and thinking of ideas for pics for Master. It may sound trivial reading but it's not. When the mind gets frozen in time it can weigh you down. I am still scared of cars, but I AM NOT AFRAID to play again. Being how Master and meat both like every end of the spectrum I have a pretty wide range of things to try - but it will be for His tastes and its purpose. With that still remains responsible spending and building up my savings but I have some fun stuff on the way!
October 4 2025
In 24 hours this bitch will be drenched in grandkids! What of eved? No worries here and I never part. Eved is a multifaceted little cunt! While soaking up the Arizona Sun and probably getting a Sunburn I will burn dreaming of coming home to Master.
Read the best book line ever: the toilet is the great equalizer, the great humanizer, and also a miracle. The grin I got just thinking of the feeling I have has Sir's private toilet matches the energy of those words. I will never feel I have ever fully achieved this gift but I will challenge any to a piss swallowing contest proudly, cause I will win. Yet more to be learned for sure.
This year I decided to step back at work and yesterday to my amazement my coworker applied for the promotion and with elation I was like yes you have to get the job! Yes, I have thousands I need to make appear for dental work and I still refuse to apply for a job that will interrupt my life and Masters. We have a schedule we like, and I am keeping it. When I need to evolve I will. I am not about money I am about Master. God got me this far and I will get where I need to go trusting my purpose - not the whims of titles - hell this toilet gets blessed bitches.
August 27 2025
The contemplation of what it means to be me gives rise to new actions, refined deeds, and a still mind. With healthy independence life has gained steadiness. A life of commitment and meaning balanced by responsibility and integrity is #eveds purpose, and I am proud of it!
Did you catch all the epic bruises just above!? No headaches, no fear, just unbridled trust in the Master. I think I am still floating from it to be blunt. I am at almost five years of no sadistic fun, and I was getting bored. Master - what was, what is, and what will always be - is my Master. I hold a part of His world with great care and yes, I am proud of that.
I can tell you with a huge grin His piss is mine and His bladder has taught me how to swallow. I have been wondering in my mind of real things to do. As performing solo is a challenge, I am giving this extensive thought. As fall has arrived, I will have plenty of time at home to journey these ideas. Excitedly envisioning what is possible.